"".....do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34
I have never been much of a worrier during my life. I am a very positive person and always try to find the good in things. However, as much as I know worrying is a big waste of time, I have to admit that for the past few days I have been a foolish worrier.
For about three days as I typed on my computer, there only seemed to be three letters in the words. When I looked at them with a magnifying glass they were normal words. After three days I debated calling my ophthalmologist or just figuring it was old age. Finally I thought I would call just in case he thought it might be something. He insisted I cancel a meeting I had the next day and come right in to see him. I did, and after a few tests he sent me to a Retina specialist.
After more tests they said they were going to do an angeogram so they could look into my eye. "I thought angeograms were only for the heart, I said. The Dr. informed me they also had them for the eye. They shot some dye into my system, checked a million things and leaving me with a rosy glow, informed methat I was to come in Friday. They said they would shoot a drug into my eye that was used to treat colon cancer. I left. I started to worry. I went home. Went to bed that night and you guessed it, I worried.
My niece, who had had this procedure before informed me that it wasn't bad at all. "You are so numb you don't even feel it," she said. That's all well and good, but the thought of someone poking a needle in your eye doesn't create peace of mind.
Oh yes, I forgot, the Dr. also told me that the drug could cause a heart attack or a stroke. I guess you think that made my day. Believe me, I, who am a late sleeper woke up at 3 a.m. the next morning. You think it might be nerves? worry? Just plain scared to death? Your are right. I dreaded Friday, but Friday came anyhow.
They called and asked me to come in two hours earlier. Done. Went in, sat in the waiting room for a while and then they called my name. Grudgingly I followed this cute little nurse, her ponytail flipping around like she didn't have a care in the world. They put me in another waiting room. It was full. For at least a half an hour no one spoke. Finally to break the ice I mentioned how I dreaded what was to come. Three women piped up saying oh, they had them all the time. Nothing to it. Ha, easy for them to say. They did make me feel a little better, but I could still see that old needle going into my eyeball. Oh-------------Finally another model type girl towering over me called me into "The Room." She said, "Have you had the lemon drop yet?" Lemon drop, what the heck is that, I wondered. No. She put drops in my eye, It burned a little. Then she left me sitting again. By now over three hours had passed, I was hungry, needed to use the restroom, and felt myself getting more tense by the minute.
At last this little, wavy gray haired man with a white Dr.s coat came in and told me we were ready. He said he would deaden it. He shot by my eye. I didn't feel anything. After about a minute, little cutie with the ponytail came in, rubbed iodine all over My eye and told me not to touch my face. They didn't want any germs. As if I had germs on my hands. Ha. Then the Dr. said, we are ready. But I am not deadened. Hay, don't bring that needle near me, I am not deadened. He flipped something over my eye to hold it open , moved around me and said, "That's it." That's it? Aw, come one, you didn't freeze it. My eye isn't even deadened yet.
Well, to end this long tirade, let me just say, I thought one side of my face would be numb, No. I thought I would panic when I saw the needle coming,No. In fact I never saw the needle. This was a piece of cake and here I had worried myself to pieces for nothing. I did find out< however, this was just the beginning. I will have to have any number of these shots. But.....Ha, I am not going to worry about it anymore.
Just another day in my wonderful, crazy life. I am so happy.
Until next time
Be kind to one another
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